Hijacked Brains

A third look at forgiveness and I hope this will be my last in his series

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Have you noticed 
How sometimes 
You are unable to think 
Pretty much about anything?

What happens?
Why are we unable to think
About anything at all
Our brains have been hijacked
Right before our eyes 
Just like that

How does that happen?
I’m currently experiencing that
I am unable to think 
Even as I want to write 
About my hijacked mind 
What happened to me?

I am sorry
I can’t think 
I feel like dumbo 
Have you read about him
The elephant and the mouse?

He’s so huge 
And yet he can’t do many things 
He was in the circus 
He was ridiculed by everybody 
For his big ears
But his friend the mouse Timothy 
Believed in him 
And helped dumbo to realize 
That his great big ears 
Enabled him to fly
And thus dumbo became 
A star at the circus 

I feel like that dumbo right now 
No nobody has ridiculed me 
But I feel belittled 
And small 
And not special anymore 
Not that I have ever felt special 
But I have felt gifted
Talented 
Creative 
In the pursuit of truth
Wisdom, knowledge and understanding 

Where was I going with this 
Yes that’s correct 
Pursuit of the truth 
That means 
Not being able to accept 
What is generally accepted 
By everyone as truth 
But wanting to dissect 
The truth that was propaganda 
Or rather the propaganda 
That was advertised
Packaged 
And disseminated as truth 
I cannot stand it
Why is it
That I alone can see through it
And not everybody else 
Beats me 🤷🏻‍♀️

It’s a gift really
I can see through 
Read between the lines
Just like that 
It will strike me as 
Not aligned 
To the truth 
Every time 
I am afraid 
And that will make me look at it closely
As though with a magnifying glass 
And so I see it clearly 
As night and day as well 

So why am I saying this
That’s where I am getting at 
We spoke about forgiveness
Twice already
I was dissatisfied 
With most answers 
That I was given 
I’ve been there
In a place where 
Somebody in my realm 
Needed forgiveness 
And I was unable 
To do that 
No matter 
How much I was taught 
To do so
Because I didn’t know 
How exactly to do that 
When the pain was still seething inside 

Forgiveness is a two step process 
It’s not just letting go of the pain
Which itself is not easy for all
It depends on many things 
A case by case basis
Has to be applied 
We cannot generalize 
About forgiveness 
For all conditions
All clauses cannot be realized 
By one overall virtue which is called forgiveness 

But let’s assume 
We can draw a line 
Around all clauses 
And make them bend to forgiveness 
And answer what it is 
That forgiveness encompasses 

Forgiveness is letting go 
You are right about that
But forgiveness is not just
About letting go of the pain
The hurt inflicted 
Upon you with intention 
When that happens 
You have a choice
In how you can react 
You have a choice 
That is very important 
You can react with a tit for tat
And that’s our natural 
However when we are educated
When we are normal human beings 
Whose brains have not been hijacked 
We can think 
And think clearly 
We can think deeply 
Look at past experiences 
Prior actions and reactions 
Evaluate 
It’s a math equation really 
We cannot generalize this but  
If we pause to think 
What would work 
And what wouldn’t 
We can then decide 
Based on evaluation
If this is worthy of our attention 
This hurt 
And then decide 
How to react to it
Do we want to react 
And give back in kind 
For the wrong delivered 
Or respond in kindness 
Compassion instead 
That decision is important 
But to arrive at that decision 
We have to be in a position 
To be able to let go of the hurt inflicted 

So forgiveness in essence 
Starts with letting go 
But if you are unable to let go 
Of the pain inflicted 
Then it’s like a wound 
You beget 
After you fall down 
Breaking your ankle bone
It cannot be healed 
Overnight 
It will take at least 
8 weeks of no movement 
For it to completely grow back in place
Correctly 
It cannot be rushed 
The heart needs its time to heal also
From the hurt 
It takes time 
Sometimes months 
Sometime years 
It cannot be rushed 
So don’t just go about advising others 
To let go 
Because that’s what it says in the scriptures 
It cannot be done like that 
For every person 
As if it was simple as saying 1,2,3 

Allow the broken heart 
To not be touched 
Or pricked again if possible 
So that it is given enough space
And time to heal
And grow back in place 
Correctly 

Trust that it will heal 
Naturally
If given the space and time 
To heal in place 
There is no need to rush this process 
Just because scripture says so
This is very important 
Because we need to give the heart 
Its place in significance
And that sometimes means 
Letting ego to have its place 
At the dinner table 
In peace 
Do you understand this?

If the heart heals 
Naturally 
Then all things can fall into place again 
And forgiveness can result 
In embrace 
Not ‘no need to forget’ 
But ‘I will let you in my heart 
Once again 
Even if you didn’t 
Show remorse
Or repentance’
Forgiveness can do this miracle 
For you and the offender 
If you give worth
And value
And treat your heart 
That hurts
With care 
Like a mother 
Cares for her young
Do you understand this?

Finally my heart rests in peace 
I hope yours does too
Thank you for listening 

Let the heart 
Take its time 
To heal 
Naturally 

Peace ✌🏽 

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