Temptations Can Be Alluring

But not worth falling into no matter how justified the actions are for taking that route, they are just short-cuts manufactured in hell that so aren’t worth your time and effort or mental balance

I want to write about the struggle
That accompanies one’s soul
After it takes bad decisions 

Yes, bad decision was taken
It brought temporary pleasure 
Momentarily 
And then it was pure hell
Afterwards 

Misery once 
Twice 
Thrice
Perhaps even four times 

Even though frequently interspersed by pleasure again 
Now and then

But then later 
It was pure venom
Spit out on her
That was completely unexpected 

Shocking 
Disgusting
Disappointing 
She wanted to drop down dead 

Because now she wasn’t having fun
It was pure torture
Torment of the mind 

Going once 
Going twice 
Until she couldn’t take it no more 

She had to surrender 
Unto heaven
Apologize for her sin
When she realized what she’d done 

I wish I could say—
And then there was peace 
But no way
Sin doesn’t come without consequence 

So yes there was consequence 
Mind boggling experience 
Literally
Migraine causing

She had to reach out to others
Asking for advice
How to stop this thing 
From happening 

As it was splitting her brain in two
Tormenting 
Desire on the one hand
Unable to satisfy itt and let it rule her on the other 

It was tempting to try to control this
But self preservation was begging not to
Because it was not like she was gonna be answered even if she tries to

If she was not gonna be answered 
It was gonna be even more pitiable 
Her circumstance 

She can’t lose now could she?
On what premise?
She wasn’t a beggar
Ego had to be satisfied 

So it was not easy 
This stuff was getting heavier by the day
Actually by the night 
What could she do

She wanted to run outside 
To throw it all up
Free herself of this misery 
One last time 

Before turning herself in 
To relief 
Whatever that meant 

This stuff was not anything 
She asked for
It was demanding her time
Her capacity to endure
Her all

She had to do something 
Anything that could restore calm
Peace 

Some decisions are not worth taking 
No matter how tempting they might sound
How alluring 
How drawing like a magnet

Next time you are captivated 
By something 
That you know 
Won’t be good for you
Listen to that tiny feeling 
That shows up alongside the temptation 

Remember this
Take the alternate route 
Don’t give in
It’s not gonna last
Whatever it is
That’s calling your name 

Instead 
Its gonna take you slipping
Sliding down wastelands
Before turning you 
Into a pile of sawdust 
Or ashes
Or dog poop
Whatever you want to call it

Take it from me
Peace ✌🏽 

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