Separation Anxiety: How God Came Through to Help Me Overcome It

Using a Single Bitten Moon Last Night

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My eldest son is 21 and he goes to college in a far off land. He usually comes back home for the holidays, semester breaks etc. But this time, he came for only two weeks because he has work back there. Two weeks was too little for me. He is leaving this afternoon. And I couldn’t sleep last night. I was troubled. We usually spend at least one long night together talking. That also didn’t happen this time. We had been so busy moving to the new house and setting it up that spending time with him became rare.

So, in my anxiety, I did what I usually do best: write! I wrote this poem:

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My son he’s 21

I am going to miss him so much
His time with us this time was so little 
He came and left swiftly
I don’t know what to do
I am going to miss him so much 

God, can you do something 
Can you bring him back sooner home
I want to spend more time with him 
And it didn’t happen now 

Please God
Immense presence 
Eternal one
I am going to miss him so much 

Please bring him back to me soon
Please God
I am going to trust in you 
To let him be mine again soon

Please help me God
I can’t bear to be ripped away from him 
My oldest first precious one 
My first friend 

Please bring him back to me soon
Safe and sound and smart and wise 
In Jesus name I pray 
Amen!

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And it calmed me down and I slept. But when I woke up again, I was still thinking of his trip back today. That’s when I saw this: the single-bitten moon. I had been sleeping in this bedroom for over a week now. And waking up a few times at nights but have never seen the moon through my blinds like this before in this new house. It was truly heaven sent to calm me down completely. God exists y’all. He sees our anxieties and knows how to calm us down.

I had been listening to a podcast called Becoming Anit-Fragile by IJ Makan on my drive last night and it was so powerful and revealing to me about how God exists. And I had also felt God in all my troubles. How He always comes to my rescue and calms me down usually through nature during my walks around the pond (which I have documented here on Substack).

So, seeing the beautiful moon shining through my blinds was not a huge surprise for me even though it was perfect for the moment to calm me down as I am feeling anxious about separating from my son yet again. And I wanted to give testimony to that.

Thanks for listening!

Peace ✌🏽

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Here’s the podcast I mentioned by

IJ Makan

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