Pain, Pleasure and Everything Else InBetween!
Waiting Can Be excruciatingly Painful But The Anticipation Can Be Pleasurable
I am lost in thought. How I can tell about this. This ain’t sex. No it’s not. But it’s comparable. Quite close. There’s one person in your life who you give all the access to, all the keys to every room of your life. They are allowed all access because you trust in them that they won’t hurt or harm you. But what if they turn rogue? What if they suddenly decide that they are going to send you down the pain highway instead? Then what do you do?
For all my life I let others control me. First it was my dad, then my girlfriend, finally my husband. All of them took advantage of me and sent me down pain land, only one person took me down pleasure land and intentionally. My boy friend. But he also sent me down pain highway sometimes and quite intentionally. He said it will make me appreciate the pleasure even more. Like Christian Grey. Is he right? What do you think?
The waiting period between pain and pleasure is also very painful but the anticipation that lingers with the hope is somewhere in between pleasure and pain. It is both painful and pleasurable, if you understand what I mean. I am right now in that in-between state. Sometimes the pain is outstanding. It causes lots of tears as it is very painful not knowing when the pleasure will arrive. But then it is also pleasurable because the longer the pain lasts, the anticipation that the pleasure is coming soon and that soon-ness causes the pleasure within the pain. It is at the same time pleasure as it is pain. The in-between state.
Many times in many things we are left in the in-between state for a long time. It is a waiting period. We seem to be waiting endlessly for something. There is expectant hope and also a slight tingling fear. A rise in temperature, something welling up your throat ready to burst out in tension, in tears!
Right now, I am in the in-between state in many things. I am anticipating the acceptance of my college application. My husband and I, we are waiting on buying a house. My son is waiting on going to college, actually finishing up high school without any more troubles. My daughter doesn’t even know she would be moving to a new school in the fall. It all depends on whether we find a house that we like at the place that we want to move to and so on. Lots of in-between pleasure and pain states.
What about you? Are you in pleasure or pain or in-between them in your life. Are you feeling suspended mid-air? Not knowing which way life is gonna go? Yes it is excruciatingly painful to wait in an in-between state, but I want you to let it go and enjoy the pleasure part of this state instead.
I want you to focus on the pleasure part of this state. The anticipation can be exciting. Many times the anticipation can be tingling to your senses. Focus on your breathing. Focus on your skin. Focus on your body. What is it telling you? Are you feeling the tingling, the electricity, the excitement and the tension building up preparing to rock in excitement. Like waiting for a concert of your favorite artist to show up anytime soon on stage.
Is the excitement of anticipation building up within you. What are you waiting for? Indulge in it. Enjoy it. Have some patience. Enjoy the waiting. Enjoy the in-between. There is passion and pleasure in waiting too. In anticipation of what’s going to happen. Enjoy it. Sometimes the enjoyment of the in-between state may be the only pleasure you will receive as well.
So enjoy it as much as you can while waiting. The dawn is coming and with it will come truth. Truth can be either amazing or it can cut the flesh like a knife. So enjoy the waiting in-between. Enjoy the hope, enjoy the tension. The anticipation in waiting—It can be thrilling! Why not enjoy it too?
What do you think? I’m sure you have experienced the three states and enjoyed all of them. The pleasure, the pain and everything else in-between.
How did it go?
Let me know in the comments.
Peace ✌️
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Thank you for restacking my post Chiwetel