I had to learn through experience

What Wisdom means

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I had to learn 
not to allow anybody to disrespect me
No matter how much I loved them
And wanted to understand them 
for doing what they did to me

I had to learn 
not to let them get away 
with enjoying their life 
while I was working hard 
night and day 

I had to learn 
to set boundaries 
with those who didn’t care about me
And didn’t know 
how they should treat me 
with respect and love 
and understanding 

I had to learn 
not to lean on anybody 
for my happiness, 
joy and satisfaction 
and peace
But only to depend on myself 
for all of those 
Only to give myself 
my due credit,
respect 
love and care 

I had to learn 
that it was not necessary 
to focus on 
what the world was focused upon

I had to learn 
that embracing what is important 
for a healthy living 
was what I needed 
and not money 
or status 
or respect from others 
due to those in me

I had to learn 
and understand 
that without either money 
or status 
or job 
or career 
no one will turn back 
to look at me 
but that shouldn’t make me 
lose what I have with me 
peace and tranquility 
and time to do whatever it is 
that is important for me 
and this world 

I had to understand that 
just because I give love freely 
doesn’t mean 
it will be well received 
or appreciated 
but that should not change me 
from giving away love for free anyway 

I had to learn that my time 
my freedom 
my health 
was more important 
than my bank statement 
when I have a husband 
who takes care of that 

I had to learn that 
just because the world 
is made up of children 
doesn’t mean 
I have to mother them all at once 
but I can choose 
to give myself priority 
and let them learn 
from their own anomalies 

I had to learn that 
I could and should 
focus on only those things 
that were important for me 
and this world around me
And nothing else really mattered 
for either me 
or this world around me

I had to learn that 
God had plans for me 
and that included a resting phase 
and I had to be quiet and take rest 
when it was given to me because 
soon it will be taken away 
and I will be expected to work hard

I had to learn to control myself 
for the sake of keeping my self respect 
among those 
who didn’t know how to respect me 

I am learning and God is with me 
while I am learning 
and he brings me peace 
when it gets really hard for me 
and when I reach out 
and ask for help from him 
he brings me help 
with warm words 
and kind hearts 
and deep love 
among other things

But I am learning 
and that is the reason 
for all that life brings me!

Turbulence is necessary 
in order to look for 
and learn 
to be satisfied 
And live with peace.

So peace ✌🏽 to you as well!

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