A Course In Divinity
Through The Clouds For Me
I was sitting out in my patio Having tea I was miserable though Inside of me I didn’t take my phone with me On purpose I wanted to gaze at the clouds And see what it brings The clouds looked excellent I wanted to reach out to my phone and take a picture right away But I restrained myself I always learn from them when I quiet myself in silence and obedience I didn’t get up and go to get my phone then As I kept looking and enjoying the beauty of the clouds While also feeling misery inside of me I saw a set of smaller darker clouds approaching me They moved very slowly As if they wanted me to take notice of them They were successful in their venture I stared at them wondering why they were there as I was watching them The answer came quickly— The sky is vast and endless That’s God, being, universe, Allah, Gaia Whomever or whatever you want to name it The beautiful white clouds are my life It’s as beautiful as the clouds The darker clouds that beckoned to me Were my present miseries And they were not here to stay They were moving slowly Passing by me rapidly Today they will be here And tomorrow I won’t even remember I had them It was refreshing to learn that But my learning didn’t stop there As I kept watching I remembered my mother My brother, my sister, My close relatives My children All who cared for me All who were having their own pains And sufferings And I blessed them I prayed that God would make it easy for them Lighter enough to carry them through The dark clouds had cleared up while I was praying for their relief As I kept my gaze steady I suddenly realized more dark clouds were here And between two sets of dark clouds Was one darker cloud That looked like a wolf that was riding on something As if it was controlling the clouds before it and the ones behind it It looked like satan The present troubles that were being brought about in our lives And it was on purpose As I watched and understood this He turned away from me and disappeared The dark clouds kept moving And now there was a thick blanket of dark clouds As if it was going to rain In my heart also Having gotten reminded of my present miseries I was feeling melancholy But the thick blanket of dark clouds was not here to make me feel miserable further It was here to reflect my feelings And envelop me as if to say I see you I get you I am here for you Now be in peace I felt very peaceful despite my misery When I was covered and blanketed by the thick dark clouds above me They were telling me God is here And now and present ever present for you So I questioned them Why then are the Palestinians suffering endlessly To which the answer came back swiftly They are a chosen group Chosen to go back to Him swiftly as well As I felt this I was also watching the clouds And they looked like a palanquin They were here to tell me this truth So my thoughts again returned to my feelings of misery I had just dumped somebody due to disrespect I knew I was going to be miserable not having them by my side as I wanted to As I was thinking about this The sky cleared again just a bit The dark clouds I mean And where they cleared I saw very clearly Two figures Together Embedded with each other In white clouds And the clouds were strangely lit up in the sky As if the sun was shining intently on them And as I watched them in surprise They also faded away quickly And the dark clouds moved over them again But it felt like I was being told They will come back again Back to me Once they understood Their mistake Due to the fear engulfing them As I kept watching I came back to my thoughts about my life Why am I who I am Why do I not want to go to work Or make money Or earn a living The clouds told me Only a few are chosen To not follow the common path To take a different route One that follows the truth If even we don’t do what we are here to achieve Then who is there to tell the truth to the world? So I was asked to rest in peace Do what feels right for me Focus on learning and growing within Time will come to share it with the world But it is not here now Now it’s time to go inward Outward Look all around Gather the crops that are profound And follow the path of wisdom and understanding Only those who don’t have their thoughts fixed on money Can have minds that are clear and prepared to follow and find What is hidden in plain sight! And so I rest every time doubt returns And tell myself I have been set apart Chosen Holy For the benefit of the world But it’s hard not to doubt When the crowd goes in herds before me Hard to stay still and focus on the truth And that’s when my thoughts are interrupted by the memory of great minds Like JK and Gandhi and others like them Truth is important for the world Truth can make us grow abundantly And make us all happy Joyful Peaceful And help us to live in love alone So pursue truth Is what I am told That’s enough for me Bless me peace ✌🏽 Thank you for listening And being with me Through this! Peace ✌🏽 to you as well!
Thank you Lalisa